2006-08-05 - 4:50 p.m.

My last entry was on the two-year anniversary of Dad's death. According to the ticker-thing, I last updated 16 days ago. It's so hard to believe that at this time, two years ago, it was only 16 days. July 19 seems like a lifetime ago.

Abiane leaves for college in 2 weeks. That's so scary. And unreal. We always knew that she'd leave, and that it'd be a year before hannah and I, being that she's a year older, but it's so real now, that we just can't believe it. It's so hard to believe that I'm not going to see her every day anymore.

Just thinking ahead to all of the "lasts" this year is going to bring- it's so sad and scary. But at the same time, I really want to experience it all, because then it'll be over and I can look back on it, and then I'll be out of here and on with my life.

In a year, it'll be me who's gone. And I don't mean that in a suicide-y kind of way.

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